Anti abandons the internet.

it's been a rough, LONG weekend. my body parts all ache, and my head is throbbing and feels like a water balloon being sqeezed too tightly. and there is not an ounce of joy left in my heart... no joy and NO PATIENCE. be careful what you say to me right now, i might just bite off your bloody kneecaps.

i should be glad... my weekend is over and normally this is celebration time...

right now though, i dont feel like celebrating, i feel like taking my 2 1/2 Lbs. Demolition Mallet and using the chisel side of the hammerhead on something fragile, valueable... and NOT MINE.

destruction of property has always been a stress reliever for me.

does anyone have a couch they can spare so that i can saok it in lighter fluid and burn this mother down? (antidis@gmail.com)

i watch my hands as i clench my fists, i see the skin tighten and watch the tendons stretch over every pointy knuckle. you can still see every move those tendons make, even underneath all the dirt, callouses, scabs, scars and skin. these poor hands of mine... the only relief after this kinda weekend is soaking them ice water.

i'd masterbate, but my shoulders are killing me. besides my muscles feel extra stiff, and soar.

i'm going to just take a shower... and clean off all this salt from my face and body (yeah i sweat THAT much)

i'm going to just shower until there is no hot water. i live in a building with a lot of apartment units and such.... so this could take a few hours.

godspeed.