after some well chosen mud slinging by both him and myself... he closes the case with why he was initially bothered by my actions.
to him, it was more of a lack of actions. i took this picture:
much like if MY truck broke down, he would be fucked. royally fucked.
so, now that the heat of the confrontation has subsided, and now that i can just chill out and reflect on what my cousin was upset about... i guess i can see his side of this.
he was checkin out my buzznet pics, and saw what he saw, and literally just wondered to himself why i wouldn't alert him to the potential royal fucking RIGHT AWAY. also because my cousin would make sure that i was aware of such a problem with my car (and i know he would).
Mike will admit that his method for telling you he is upset does NOT involve many roses, or very much harp music, and i guess i can swallow my pride and stop being defensive about it, and admit it.
i'm a selfish motherfucker who cares only about himself. and really that's not even accurate. so lemme clean it up.
i'm a person who cares about other people, but who has his head so far up his ass, that really... it's just a big let down, and welcome to disapointment town, population:EVERYONE IN MY LIFE. i do nice things for people. it can be proven with examples... but in 99.9% of those examples, i only do nice things when it's also conveniant for ME. if you need my help, and i have to be bothered "too much", i'll prolly just shine it off.
that's who i am. that's me being me. but im FUCKING WORKING ON IT MAN. im becomeing a NEW ME.
you brought up, mike, that i wake up at noon everyday, and i am sucked into the internet, and you joked, "the matrix has you, man. UNPLUG!!!" and now that im calm, i can laugh at that, because it is funny.
and true. i need to FUCKING UNPLUG.
i went skating today, i woke up at a decent hour, and YES.... i checked my stats only three times (so far).
don't say that i pride myself on being a lazy fucking waste-o. I DON'T.
i pride myself being all i can be, and recognizing my faults, and working to correct them. that's what makes me proud.
and for the record, i was going to tell you about you car bleeding. but i was wrong for not calling you IMMEDIATELY. because that would have been the right thing to do.
and im sorry.
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